Tuberculosis
I wasn't sure how to blog about this, but about a week ago, I was diagnosed with [Tuberculosis]. What is TB? It's a disease caused by bacteria that usually attacks the lungs. It makes you cough up blood and can be fatal. I learned this at a routine employment check up. I'm not contagious, and as far as I know, my immune system has been keeping it in check. I seriously don't know how long I've had it.

I did a little research and discovered that the swollen lymphnodes I've had since I was a child is a strand of Tuberculosis. That's explains why I was pretty sickly as a kid.

Lately I've been watching sad movies and music videos. I've been much more in tune with romantic notions of sick women (like Moulin Rouge). I hate to sound morbid but a part of me wants to be on my deathbed (probably the drama queen in me saying this). It's an attractive thought to me because then people around me would care for me more and I wouldn't have much to think about.

To those of you who have the time, take a look at this Chinese music video. You don't need to know the language to understand it. I'm quite convinced the girl as TB. I guarantee a cry, if not, it will choke you up a bit. [Watch it here]

On top of things, it is quite possible that Dave and I have broken up since the last tantrum he threw as a result of my "attitude" may be unforgivable. He knows I have TB but he's sure it's nothing but it's probably why I want to be sick. He's taken all his stuff, including the heater he gave me. I'm so cold.

I'm drunk, I need sleep. Goodnight all.